State of the T

I probably should wait until the October recap for this, but meh. 

It's been just about three months from Lake Placid, and I am lost.

I have been out hiking and I've enjoyed it, but anything else? It's so hard. Just mentally impossible.

I'm in my favorite running season, and I can't be bothered to get out the door to run. Or to go ride. And swimming? Pfffffft. Attempting to do a lift up in our loft is almost as bad.

(and lifting at the gym? gym anxiety for lifting weights hit some time a few years ago (really, i blame crossfit) and it's never really left. so that's straight out.)

It's not that I don't want to move. It's just that there's a disconnect. It might be similar to what I dealt with through most of this year. Maybe there's still a frayed wire thanks to the 'rona (from one year ago)(i'm still dealing with a bit of a brain fog - words are hard - which sucks for someone who was always halfway decent with them) that's been making things hard. Maybe the waffling of the past two years did indeed break my brain.

Whatever it is, it's rough. 

The state of the T, as it is, is mostly idleness. I'd rather it not be, but energy is at a premium. 

Like from late last year/earlier this year, I'd almost say it's like I was depressed except mentally, I'm not. But maybe my physical body is.

All I can do is my best each day, and hopefully that'll start involving a bit more movement than not.

September Round Up

I'm slowly starting to get back at things - verrrry slowly - and September was indicative of that.

Swimming: 1000m (.62 mi)
Cycling: 50.59 mi
Running: 23.8 mi
Strength: nine sessions (3:34)
Other: one hike (1:00), one session erg (:15), two walks (1:07), four sessions yoga (:40)

Swimming still definitely hasn't come back, but I am trying to get there. I have good intentions, let's put it that way.

I actually did get back on the trainer again - woo! - and am continuing to get on the gravel bike ... even though it seems I get at least one puncture every time I go out. Grateful for the tubeless tires on that bike right now, let's just say that.

I am starting to get a bit more serious with the running again - more structured workouts, seeking out hills - which is a very good thing and really, long overdue. I think the last time I seriously did that stuff was what, 2019?

Strength hasn't been terrible, but it definitely needs to get more consistent and I think I need to start planning out my lifts better. I also would ideally like to get over my gym anxiety and get back to lifting in a gym again as opposed to at home, but we'll see if that actually happens.

I'm glad I had so much "other" - we're getting into my actual favorite hiking season (fall)(actual favorite season for everything, really), so I'm hoping to have a bit more of that going forward. The four yoga/stretch sessions is HUGE for me. I would also like to get out and walk a bit more on the regular, but not necessarily always log it, so we'll see how that goes.

The last thing not listed anywhere, but something I've actually been trying to do again, is a pre-run warm-up. This body definitely feels that it's close to 40, and my runs have been feeling a lot better after the warm-ups. So there's that. 

I have some loose goals for October, but I'm not going to share those here. Might try to keep things a bit closer to the chest here for the rest of the year ... mostly because I'm still trying to figure out my future.